Trust

So I have to admit i have trust issues.
Never did in the past, because i naturally trusted people.
Later on i learnt that even the closet friends i have all seemed to betray me. The ones that werent so close were easy to just hate them for life for backstabing me. Though the ones i held so dear was not so easy. I forgave them yes but i never forgot. Some of these people dont even know that I KNOW the shit that they did behind my back. Yet i still forgave them? Why. Maybe because im holding on to the past or maybe i just love them so much that even if they hurt me i still wanted them. Now recently when i finally trust someone that i hold dearly, it wasnt easy but i learnt that if i didnt trust them how could i be happy. I now find out the person doesnt even trust me or anyone in general: due to their own personal experience. So where does that leave me well obviously im piss offed and im an emotional wreck. I dont know what to do and I want to be able to trust people.
But in the end you always get hurt.
Life was easier when you were younger as you grow older it just’s get harder.  

I like tumblr. Because its a place where i can express what im feeling and what i like. It’s also a place where nobody knows me and i dont know them. 

It’s one place where my friends or people i may know cannot access me.
Which is good cause at times we all need a little privacy/break from our world.

It’s better out then in

People say ‘it’s better out then in’
I agree. 
I’ve been keeping all these emotions inside of me, it was like a ticking bomb - ready to explode. 
Today i finally let it all out, AND i gotta say it i feel so much better.
Im worry free and i feel lighter, like the weights been lifted off me.

When i say i let it all out i don’t mean crying to myself but solve the problem as well.  Talking it out with someone just made it so much easier. Though very embarrassing. 

I’m usually a happy person, so i dont like it when people see me vulnerable, its just something id preferred to keep to myself.

So if i’ve ever just let my tears fall infront of someone, it means i trust you. ALOT.

Only very few people see my tears, because not every one is worth the tears.